How Long ?

Up in this lonely night , after having a hot shower .
suffering terrible anguish in silence , thinking of what i shouldnt be thinking .
My heart crumbles like a rotten cookie . So lost , so helpless . and i wonder why is the alcohol ain't helping me to get this shit off temporary .
If only i can sleep my pain and worries away .

I need and wants to be cure .

such a terrible nightmare..it never goes away .

Save Me.