Still not perfect .

Nothing much , i just hope that halloween is just a day away all of a sudden .
Hooha , my school hasn't even start and i am talking about event way after august .
Talking about school , i left 3-4 months to sleep all i want , had fun till the fullest and do what i want . Excited and scared at the same time . Do not dare to think so much .

At the same time , within this 100 over days , the most exciting day that i am waiting for is my first actual pay day , actual as in the fully one month salary , which is in a month time . Don't say it's still early because i realised time passes really fast . If you never notice , i think you can go drink your own cum and ive been working for 3 weeks alrdy . HEHEE and also ive already listed out my what-to-buy-using-my-pay list and give the remaining to mother . but seriously , i am pretty impressed with myself for being able to stay in this job for 3 weeks because , believe it or not . All the previous jobs i had , i stay not more than 3 days . It's good , all good ! I used to be so wilful , irresponsible and complain over the littlest thing . I came to realise all those shits are actually nothing ! I am just too pampered and spoon fed , and i believe the reason why is because i am the only child and i know this can't stay for long because i am getting older year by year and soon after , i can't probably still depends on my parents , in terms of money as well .

I know , ive wasted a year , almost two . I spent them away by doing nothing and i am totally regretting for not getting a job in the past , i could have earn enough and start to save up and stop using my parents' money instead of spending and taking more from them at least for a few months . I would not say and dare not to say i will be able to stop taking money from my parents completely because i don't have the ability to even though i hope i can . Unless i work and study at the same time which is impossible for me to do so because i can't manage time well and i believe the amount of works i need to handle won't allow me to waste another minute but at least , the feeling of buying something w your very own money , buying things for your parents using your very own money and to be able to repay them kinda thing . I am not young anymore , i am not young anymore . This is something ive to remind myself constantly . Not like im an old faggot but i am at the age whereby i should be fully independent and be responsible . I seriously felt bad and useless taking extra money from my parents but i can only blame it on my very poor management in money . Got to start learning not to buy unnecessary stuffs already and saving up .

I do miss my good o'days being in love and got so attached to my boyf and even way before when my parents are not seperated , family day on every sunday and those days when i have no worries when i was really young and maybe my only worry is if my cousin will spoil my toys / maybe not to be able to score 100 for my spelling and dictation on every Monday during my primary sch days . But HAHA , i can't revert and to only look forward to another brand new day thinking of $$ , future and so many many many many many many other things . Guess time changes a person and their thinking and the changes in surrouding changes a person as well . That doesnt mean i will stop disturbing people . disturbing is FREE . i don't need to spend money on that . HEEHAHAHEHA . what a spoiler !!


It's time for the witch to go to bed , xxoo !!!