Unlucky 30.

Today is so not my day . Only had 2 hours of sleep , i was awake from 2am all the way till NOW . Reached Somerset at 10am for product training , it went on smoothly and everything ends 3 hours later .

Met Felicia at CityHall for lunch . Freaking waitress , gave us the wrong food . Worst still , she doesnt want to change for us . what an old slut ! Headed to cine after lunch , caught <<the unborn>> . Drank the worst papaya milk juice in my life , encountered a rude banker on the phone . I swear if i know how he looks like , i will smash duck's shit on his face .
Didn't manage to get the bag from Forever21 . Went back home after having dinner w Daniel and Felicia . Got followed by a sickening guy , he perspired like a dog and was carrying a suitcase . He constantly stuff his hand into his pants' pocket to grab hold of his useless dick . Thank god my aunt came to my rescue . If not i could have been rape ! Thank goodness he never touch me , or i would have take the scissor that my aunt asked me to buy from my paper bag and stab him or i'll just grab my bloody pad and slap his face . URGH !

& how can i forget to mention , ive got terrible bad hair day today . Everytime i look in the mirror i got pissed . I always made the wrong decision in my life and here's JUST another one .



DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG
DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG
DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG DOG

Because ive got issues w my hair earlier on . I chopped off my fringe after i got back home , now i miss my o'fringe becase i iz rooook so urgerweee naww !!!
(i shouldn't have choose this day to cut my hair)

-cries-

Even If You Cannot .

The day started off w me meeting Daniel and Felicia for indian food at Yishun in the evening along w my red pean paste bun .
We came across this supermarket and got attracted by the fresh strawberries selling at $2 per box after our dinner .
The initial plan was to buy some chocolate and make fondue and mix w the strawberries then plan changes to making chocolate truffle .
As we walk to the counter , about to make payment , the barcadi at the rack caught our attention .
The innocent chocolate making plan was then abandon for barcadi and redbull .

We laughed on my way home , passing by the columbarium surrounded w mild smell of frangipani .

Daniel : I smell frangipani .
Me : Youre not suppose to say out .
Daniel , Felicia & I : HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA !!!!

The drinking starts right after we got back home and we empty the bottle half and hour later. We didn't had enough . So we went downstair to get another bottle , Johnny Walker this time round and it started to make all of us tipsy .
I slipped and fell because i trip over my own cup and there's a bruise on my leg now .
Felicia knocks out after a bottoms up and Ive to admit the alcohol is strong .
Daniel was a really happy boy , jumping all over the place .
So sad , the night has to end early due to Fel's curfew !@#$#@!

I fell asleep 1hour later and now i am awake , just finished dyeing my hair .
Ive to got up @ 8am if i am gg to bed because ive training at Somerset later on .














it's almost 5 now and...

I AM HUNGRY !!!!

I Crave ...

I WANT TO EAT THIS BADLY !!!!!!!!!!!!

How Long ?

Up in this lonely night , after having a hot shower .
suffering terrible anguish in silence , thinking of what i shouldnt be thinking .
My heart crumbles like a rotten cookie . So lost , so helpless . and i wonder why is the alcohol ain't helping me to get this shit off temporary .
If only i can sleep my pain and worries away .

I need and wants to be cure .

such a terrible nightmare..it never goes away .

Save Me.

Not To.

I am NOT GOING TO SLEEP till i complete the whole episode of <<True Blood>> .
im at ep8 , 4 more to go .

Confession Of A Shopaholic is a good movie , i love it so much .

I want to eat , i want to eat ! I dont want to eat , i dont want to eat .
fish burger .
and...
I am sleepy :(

WONDERFUL !

I fucking believe getting karma in relationship .
Like you played him/her , you win the game and the next moment , who cares if it's the same person you fucked it up w or your new love . You'll find yourself in shit , the exact same shit of what you did previously . No matter how hard you tried to make it perfect , work things out and be a better person rather than continue being a jerk , you'll still get it .

Don't you agree ?

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I am feeling good !!

Devil May Care.

I just realised I am so carefree !!


My little girl turns prettier . I took it while she's asleep . Look at the color , so much nicer compared to the first day i bought her . No ? Those who disagree shall die !

Oh , I am heading to bed now .
Good morning .

Misses.

Hotel For Dogs is awesome . I swear .
How can i not miss my lil cutie pie after seeing so many adorable fuckers in the movie .

Tip Top , Drip Drop .

My throat is bothering me (alot!) . The chicken curry , 3 egg tarts and Spicy nacho i had today really helps alot .

HELP.

Rise Up.

Yesterday was the best party ever in 2009 ! It's Merry's birthday party .
I am having sore throat now ! :(
Met up w Joshua in town w Celeste , headed down to V.o .
Then..then..then.. Cel and I headed down to Zirca w Annie ! Met Merry and her bunch of girlfs .
SO FUN SO FUN SO FUN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! At the same time , i can't wait for next saturday alrdy !!!!!!!





The whole group outside Rebel.





Zirca !!


Celeste and Natasha !!!


Celeste !! the bday girl Merry and annoying Deeg .


Annie is sooooooooooooooooooooo hot !!!

More pictures on facebook , i gonna go get ready and head out for indian rojak now . FWEEEHOOO.

This morning , I dreamt that I am a super hero w super power and i save the world together w my super hot caucasian super hero boyf . Must be too much of race to witch mountain because I think that Alexander Ludwig is quite hot (blushes) . Then after that , my super hot caucasian boyf slowly fade away and I landed myself on some random rooftop and i lost my power . I entered a room through a small window and found my dad inside -.- He got possesd by a demon and started using needle to poke himself . The old folks in the house asked me to make a trip to popular book store to get a get rid of demon for dummies book . Maybe too much of child's play . I passed by a swimming pool on my way there and the place is filled w zombies from the House Of The Dead 3 . I don't really give 2 shits because i know they can be easily killed w gun . One zombie that look like frakenstein spotted me and chase after me . At the moment when he nearly catch me , i forced myself to wake up from the dream because i realised i don't have a gun with me and my heart beats as fast as a running cheetah .

For Papa & Mama .

Because i am afraid people i love leaves me forever one day .
Because i am afraid of death .
Because i don't know how to express my feelings .
Because of not knowing how to express my feelings , people i really love tend to misunderstand me/leave me .
Because i am afraid of making people i care upset .
Because i give up easily and take things for granted .
Because ive got no idea how to tell them how much i love them and how fucking important are they to me .
Because it has a deep meaning ...

Diamond is known as the hardest natural mineral . To me , it symbolises strength .
Parents' signature : something to symbolise them .



I want them to be w me till the day i die , be a part of me .
To give me strength and to remind me not to give up things easily , not forgetting what they had done for me , to repay them and love them . Even though I always have issues w my Dad , how unreasonable and bad he can be at times . Deep down , I know he loves me .

Ive got no idea what will they think . To be upset , angry or happy ? It's alright for them to be mad at me , i just don't know how to face it .
but one thing for sure , there's nothing to regret about getting this done .
I hope i'll be able to convince them one day , someday...

yawns yawns yawns . I was having prata w daniel , felicia and jingwen this morning at 4 am .
Ive got nothing to do back then , so i decided to disturb my lil cousin in the army by sending him a text .

Me : Wake up .

**No Reply**

I got back home at 5am and he texted me , i fell asleep while waiting for him to reply . 9am , he replied . I read through it and went back to sleep . Half and hour later , I received a text from him again saying ...

"Wake up"

Me : AHH ! fuck . oh nose :(

"Retribution" is the only word that whirls in my mind at that point of time .

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Now , i is sleepy (extremely) as usual .

I Miss ... The Best Of ...

Not to mention , Jennifer Tilly is awfully hot .

Is Spinning.

You spin my head right round, right round
When you go down, when you go down down
You spin my head right round, right round
When you go down, when you go down down
You spin my head right round, right round
When you go down, when you go down down
You spin my head right round, right round
When you go down, when you go down down
You spin my head right round, right round
When you go down, when you go down down
You spin my head right round, right round
When you go down, when you go down down
You spin my head right round, right round
When you go down, when you go down down
You spin my head right round, right round
When you go down, when you go down down
You spin my head right round, right round
When you go down, when you go down down
You spin my head right round, right round
When you go down, when you go down down
You spin my head right round, right round
When you go down, when you go down down
You spin my head right round, right round
When you go down, when you go down down

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AWESOME !

Usually The Queen .

I feel so empty all of a sudden .

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What a quiet night .
The television is on , the fan is spinning , my fish is swimming , my heart is beating and i am breathing .
Finally , finally ! I have gotten myself a job .

& the day was well spent w my mother over her place .


I always feel that my surrounding is very dark because of my skin color .

I am into collecting johnson n johnson's baby lotion lately & ive 4 bottles so far . HEEH.


It's Sukri and the ugly last week. DARN ! i can actually turn so dark in such a short period of time .

I am so so so so so sleepy . I shall end this post w a picture of my bestf Buddha and I .



& now i hope i won't get bad karma :B

Pet .

Unlovely - The friendship fighting fish .

Indian rojak w the bananaz was awesome followed by a game of bowling.
Ive got only 30cents in my wallet , a new color for my hair and a pet fish . It's so ugly till i have to name it Unlovely but no worries , it's a life even though it's cheap and ugly :B I will take good care of it and furthermore it carries a significant reason . HEEEHAAAHEEE!! My cousin is going to serve the nation tomorrow . Met him up for lunch at Marina Sq yesterday.




& the cousins crashed my place in the middle of the night  .





I have to wake up at 8am tomorrow , so , nightey folks and unlovely.

Skipeeedidooo ~~

Good Afternoon Aladdin . I just came back from swimming followed by a heavy lunch @ Bakerzin w my cousin .
cream sauce pasta , pumkin soup and oreo cheese cake .

therefore ,
I.AM.NOT.GOING.TO.EAT.FOR.THE.REST.OF.THE.DAY.

i mean it ! i mean it !
NO YOU DONT !
YES I AM !!!

My hair is in a different million shades of tone and i am growing darker day by day . My concealer doesn't match my current skin tone . I am not surprise if i turn into charcoal someday :DD
Went to Shatec on the 6th to attend a party organised by my former class . It was great to see my ex-classmates and to recevie plenty of pleasant regards from them . Made my day . me is like !

Caught My Bloody Valentine yesterday . It wasn't that gory like what others said , it looks fake though , it's only the sound man , the sound ! I could have watch the whole movie w/o covering my ears . Most of the time , i am scared by the sound more than what is shown on the screen . Like it makes you nervous , crank up and all . While on the other side of the seats , Cel was screaming her ass off. I cant wait for Friday the 13th to be released . It's produced by the director of Texas Chainsaw . I reckon it'll be good !

Did i mention ? The weather is being a bitch lately . It can be so cold and so hot the next moment .
BAH !

I am going to a place called "Dreamland" .

Till then ,
xoxo .

WHY AH.

I is smell of chlorine because i went swimming this morning .

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JocelynT, says:
im gg swimming again tml

TheImmortalCrazyViolentGoldenThroat.                 Fucked For Life Modified Crew,The Golden Throat Monkey' says:
omg

JocelynT, says:
LOL

TheImmortalCrazyViolentGoldenThroat.                 Fucked For Life Modified Crew,The Golden Throat Monkey' says:
r u serious

JocelynT, says:
YES! nvr been so serious in my life

TheImmortalCrazyViolentGoldenThroat. Fucked For Life Modified Crew,The Golden Throat Monkey' says:
i wish u all the best in keeping fit my dear

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